happiness

There are many ways in which God removes sadness and replaces it with happiness...

The key is to have faith that the problem may not be solved and we may not get what we wanted in the first place, but we may still feel happy in the solutions that God give.

Solutions which come in all shapes or form...better than what we thought we wanted...because we humans are limited in our capacity in fathoming what is good for us, and what is not.

We may pray for things that we want, but only God determines whether those things fulfill us with happiness or not.

Some things that we thought we wanted may be a cursed gift. And the things we thought we didn't want may in turn be blessings in disguise.

Happiness, and not the things we pray for, is the truly divine gift

Lesson learnt-

Give unconditionally and do not expect anything from your partner
As you will be disappointed to no end
Nobody is perfect
And neither are you

But do have faith and expect
That God will reward you with all the love
The sacrifice you have made
And the kindness that you do

With someone who will do the same for you
And by that time you wouldn't care if it was him or anybody else
It wouldn't matter because you'll be in love
With someone that God has chosen for you

Because only God decides
Why worry when it's all in His hands?

Take care of yourself, your family, your friends,
And be as successful as you can
Because you should be ready
For the person He intends you to be with

goodbye 2009

i am very tired today, in fact i feel that everyday. i m not sure why, i guess i had enough sleep last nite..n any other nights. mayb its just psychology ;p i am in inactive spot for so loong, almost 1 year i think..i need to do sports. i need to exercise, im so fat,my fats have multiplied into 1000+ by now :( how pathetic right? i always rant at my friend that i wanna be hottie and skinny..but the fact is i will eat more n more. sighh n now i hv givenup..

im planning to cut my hair, do you think tht it is a good idea? i really take my hair seriously..although i hardly comb them every morning..hehe. i dont mind not having any makeup on my face or muka cam x mandi..but when it comes to my hair, i am very particular (although i know my hair is not tht silky or shiny or perfect) but it is self satisfaction u know..
im thinking to hv a shoulder length haircut.

u know i guess ive became tougher nowadays..n not to forget more independent ;P finally i can survive by my own feet..my baby sister will sure proud of me..cos she always labeled me as mengada2 n mengada2.. last time i always need someone to accompany me to anywhere but now i've realized tht i can actually survived..n it does mean that i 've become more mature n i've learnt alot through out the way..im proud of me! hehe

its almost 3 months i ve been in a long distance relationship and it works greatt..hehe. i think i love him..i really love him. but i have crisis with myself..im not sure wht is wrong with me. nvm, i will ignore tht..n keep loving him. heheh..;p i really hopee time will flies fast so tht i can be happily ever after with him..vavava...hehe

last but not least, (since i only updates my blog like once every few months/weeks so excuse me for this loong post..heh) anyways, my new year resolution is i want to save up my money for my near future..i want to start saving seriously..(i know im kinda late but wht the hell..) save save save!!

oo btw, did i mentioned that i just came back from uk? hehe..uk is nice, but wht's more fantastic is i went to malta as well..i loove Malta. i really do. i wish to have my honeymoon there. i want to marry rich guy please. Maltese r very very friendly..the place is very very breathtaking n peaceful..u know wht, u hardly find hot guys with 6 pax there cos most of the tourists there are senior citizens..old couples..so sweet right? tht is why i said the place is very peaceful..do not expect like bali. n the beach...ahhhhh..i love it. hehhe..

ok toodles. few pictures fr malta :)

im texting my sayang..;P

i miss him. i misss him ;)

LDR

it has been 1 month im on LDR..and i survived..hahha..im so proud to myself. today is the last day of oct and im enjoying myself resting at home...me likey. i cant wait for twilight new moon movie..Jacob is soo hott..:x - aihh i have no idea wht to blog abt but still wana write something

i can see everyone seems to be happy with their life now..and im glad to know tht u r happy..i know i hv broke their heart so i guess they deserved wht they have now..:) on the otherhand, i am still me..catching up my life. i want to be someone better..

i miss him so badly..23months to go..:( how to survive. i never been in this kind of relationship.. i want to be a better gf..bcos i was a bad bad gf then..sigh



i miss him. i miss him. i miss him .hehhe

:):):):)

please ignore my previous post, i was kinda melodramatic..heheh

all i want to say is i am happy now..hehe (and saddd ;( )


someone gave me this song..:)





bestkan?
:):):)

im being positive right now..everyone has a dream to catch..

muse..

so far far away

its saturday..n finally i get to rest and not thinking abt work..work is tiring these few days. im not sure why..i kinda hate to go to work nowadays..

how to know when the person we like eventually likes us back? what's the signs..and wht if the person we like has a gf? should we stop liking them? and my other thought tells me, if tht person really likes us they will make it happen, they will make us know since at the very beginning...right?

..n how do they let us know?




hehehe.
ok then i shud stop dreamingg and go bathe..have a good ramadhan everyone.

qoutes to ponder

"maybe we like the pain. maybe we're wired that way..because without it, i dont know..
maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying, "why do i keep hitting myself with a hammer?" - "because it feels so good when i stop".

Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.

At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way too dangerous to cross.

At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that its happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you , and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

i have an electric shock hair...

guess wht, today i really focused on my work. i dont really ym or browsing..im impressed with myself..:)

n while driving home just now, i was thinking to form an activity for myself ..since i dont really hv anything to do after work..hv not much money..no bf..no many friends..n i cant really play tennis at the mo because of the injury on my left knee..so i was thinking to swim.. i've found the pool..at the place called The Club, and since it is located on my way to home, it is easier for me to just stopped by for an hour -3 times a week..how cool is that? haha
i need to bring my swimming attire to work on monday, tuesday and thursday..huhu..seriously this is no joke.n i can socialize at the pool..n hoping to get to know few interesting ppl..wow i can see how fun it gona be..(actually how loserr i am..:P)
so i will start nxt week and stop a while for ramadhan..then continuee..

i was having dinner with my so called best buddy just now,,he just came back fr india this morning..how sad indian ppl doesnt really want him to stay, he was actually assigned to work there for 5 months but was sent back because indian ppl doesnt want foreign worker to work with them..

n the moment he saw me..the first thing he noticed was my hair..;( sedih weh..he said my hair looks like kena electric shock n its ugly..damnit..i really hv to do something to my hair..

wow im soo excited..after this my body sure will looks like halle berry....hehehe...